If you are subscribed to the newsletter, then you may have realized the site has been a little quiet. And if you’re not… well then you should be subscribed! But, let me explain the silence.
In September, I decided to quit my full-time job. That was a really difficult decision I had to make, but it was extremely necessary. It felt like I was in complete auto-pilot mode while at work; I would go in, sit at my desk and answer phone calls all day with an exact script. Being around the staff made me really bitter. I didn’t want to talk to them at all during my 9-5. I would go to my car for lunch while everyone else ate together. Even the doctors I worked for made me resent taking the job. There was just no mutual respect for the staff nor the patients.
The medical assistants (one in particular) would constantly nag me about things I’m doing wrong and expecting me to have known how to do my task on the first try (mind you, this was my first office job). I’m not naive and I know that things take time, but when you’re being attacked even through email then it’s time to reevaluate.
My physical and mental health was taking a huge hit that I didn’t even want to talk about how my day went because it would put me in a really bad mood. I was at a job I hated and during my shift, I was getting constant messages about the wedding that at one point, I didn’t want a wedding anymore. This was my wake up call, how could I not want to marry my best friend anymore?
Planning the wedding was the last thing I wanted to do. During the month of October/November, I put a pause on planning. There were certain things I was trying to get done but it was pointless because I didn’t even have a final guest list. I had gotten my venue and started on premarital counseling and that’s all that mattered to me for this year.
Finding a job was pretty easy for me. I was able to find a job within my two weeks notice and I love where I am at. I work with kids and being with them makes me so youthful and I love that. Don’t get me wrong, they definitely drive me nuts but the cuteness totally outways the bad.
Being an adult took a huge toll on me. I took on a huge new job and didn’t let people know that I didn’t want to talk wedding anymore. Now it’s December and I feel much more refreshed and ready to get back into the grind of things. I prioritized my mental and physical health and am now enjoying being an almost grown up.